Cognitive dissonance

When I am in love it feels like this– like my beloved is watching me from far away and feeling very sad. He doesn’t realize the dissonance is a projection of fear, and that on the other side of it he’s also in love with me running outside.

Loss of self

Church

If you don’t know you have this ego identity when you experience your dreams or soul truth coming up it will feel extremely painful like you are losing yourself and you will mistake that pain as coming from this person or that dream rather than the pain of you running from yourself. In other words that pain is love.